Thank you for your e-mail, and for your honesty in admitting why you don't want to turn your life over to Jesus. And you're right about one thing: If you ever do give yourself to Jesus Christ, it will change your life.
But you're wrong to think it would change it for the worse! For one thing, right now you're living only for yourself, and to you it seems like the best way to live. But is this true? The answer is no -- because that kind of life will never bring you lasting peace and stability. You'll always be looking for one more thrill... one more relationship... one more experience.
Eventually, however, you'll come to the same conclusion as the writer of Ecclesiastes in the Old Testament: "Everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind" (Ecclesiastes 2:11). Only God can give us lasting joy and peace; every other way will prove false. And that's one reason why I hope you'll give your life to Jesus. His promise is for you: "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you" (John 14:27).
Don't be deceived into thinking God's way is dull and boring, and every other way is exciting and fun. The opposite is true! Life's greatest joy comes from knowing Christ and learning to walk with Him every day. Discover this truth by asking Christ to come into your life today. You'll never regret it.