You aren't alone; millions of people look at their lives the same way you do. Down inside, they know God exists; they may even realize that someday they'll have to face Him. And yet they don't want anything to do with Him right now.
Why is this? One reason is because they believe that living without God is a lot more exciting than living with God. But it simply isn't true! Eventually, a life of self-indulgence will catch up with you, resulting in boredom and heartache and even self-destruction. But God promises us a far better path, and nothing is more exciting than knowing God and discovering His plan for our lives. I often think of Jesus' words: "I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full" (John 10:10).
But people don't turn to God for another reason: They hope they can do it later. After all, they think, won't God forgive me and let me into heaven even if I only turn to Him at the last minute? Yes, He will, but how to do know you'll actually turn to Him? The longer you resist God, the more calloused your heart will become -- and the less likely you'll be to turn to Him. And life is uncertain; death could strike before you have the opportunity.
Don't gamble with your soul; don't resist God any longer. God loves you, and He knows what's best for you. By faith turn your life over to Jesus Christ -- beginning today.